Current weight: 68.1 kg
Hey guys, guess who’s more than a little suicidal and crazy!
So, the tournament went fine actually. I had a great time and actually won the whole thing, even had fun and continued talking to two of the girls I like which is good! I drove there and back with friends and even snacked throughout the day! My friend then took the last 4 cookies of that batch. Apparently they were amazing and got them really really stoned off 1.
I’ve been high and/or drunk everyday since then. This batch of cookies is wayyyyyy weaker and II’ve actually had 20 while writing this. (Don’t worry, those are all my solids for today and I’m planning to work it off). I actually went in to uni on monday!! But then haven’t gone to anything tuesday and wednesday… so this isn’t so much of a blog entry as an update on how my life still refuses to make sense.
I have fucked up so many friendships, not just this week but also just all my life. I fucked over my first ever friend, almost literally stabbing her in the back; I fucked over my life, so many times. I’ve had so many thoughts of killing myself recently, and if I don’t stop gaining weight, I’m going to have to. I’m getting to the point where I will literally try cutting off my thighs if I get too heavy or stoned.
Idk, might update later if I need to. Stay safe, stay skinny, A x
“What sane person could live in this world and not be crazy?”
Ursula K. Le Guin
Life, and other lies 