Current weight: 68.05 kg
Hmmm, so what have I done in the week since my last post? Monday and tuesday I actually managed to go to (almost) all of my lectures, which I’m really proud of myself for. Nothing much else except I didn’t eat on those days. Wednesday I was only 400 grams off my lowest weight, but 5 people said that my body check photos look like an actual anorexic soooo who knows what to think. I ended up binging on wednesday and ruining it, and skipping uni again.
That night I ended up having 10 weed cookies and by 8 I was feeling them REALLY kick in, but then I decided to go to my friend’s house and do a key of Ket (my first time lol). By the time we got to the pub I was already pretty wasted, but I had a few ciders then ended up going clubbing. I spent around £20 total, which wouldn’t be so bad if… I didn’t only have £40 left to my name – oops. I ended up leaving at like 2 am and walking home. My friends still have the rest of my cookies but I’ll get them back.
Thursday was a write off – I ate a lot, and didn’t go to uni at all. I did go to orchestra though! Music always makes me feel better, so it was a good time. Afterwards I made weed oil, but I think it’s really weak. I don’t know what happened on friday – I ate and then made weed bread in the evening. Saturday I ate the rest of the bread and ended up baking chocolate weed cookies before our friends came over for a chill evening of games and drink. I’m starting a 9 day fast today so that next tuesday I’m ready. I’ll be back in my old town and it’s scary to think about.
I tried to do the saltwater flush this morning, but only made it through two cups because the taste is just SO horrible. But it has worked, so maybe I’ll force myself to try again at some point!
In the meantime; stay safe, stay skinny, A x
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Albert Einstein
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