Current weight: 67.1 kg
Wow, I really have been gone a long time. What’s happened since last time, short version, is… not much. I stopped taking Sertraline cos it turns out it was probably doing more harm than good, I gained a ton of weight, but started going back down, made “Ana Bracelets”, played a ton of video games and stayed clean of cutting. I started brewing my own alcohol during all this mess too so hopefully that gets me something good!!
Serious talk, my mental health crashed. I spent everything I had on weed and booze, torched friendships, got called out for my shit, and thought about making an attempt. It’s odd, I managed to stay in control and not do anything stupid, but still not do anything I was supposed to. I’m… tired of existing. I’m not living, I’m not having fun, I’m trying not to eat. You’d think if I had this time to myself I’d use it to work, or tidy my room or some shit but no. I’m stuck doing nothing because my stupid brain refuses to work.
I’ll catch you later when I have something better to say, but in the meantime
Stay safe, stay skinny, A x
“There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.”
Laurell K. Hamilton, Mistral’s Kiss
Life, and other lies 