Current weight: Not checked in 2 weeks
I need to just leave this page open so I remember to write. Since last time we talked, some stuff has happened. I’m in my new house, all my housemates are here, uni has started again, I’m single(ish), I’ve tried acid, and I haven’t weighed in for a while. I got up to 72 kg at one point and ended up trying to ignore things until I’m back to a less shit weight.
I’m going to town tomorrow to pick up my new glasses and to hopefully buy some makeup for my new aesthetic – e-girl. I know I’m just jumping on the bandwagon, but I can pull it off once I lose some more weight. In terms of not eating, I vary. Sometimes all I do is eat, sometimes all I do is starve. It’s difficult to know how to stop myself when I do eat.
I haven’t drunk in 3 days which is a lot for me. Yes, I’ve done acid and weed in that time but they’re different. Acid was my first time and was absolutely amazing, helped me realise things about me, and weed is one of those things that is way better than alcohol to do. I’m honestly just tired of life right now, and I can’t be bothered to care about things.
Stay safe, stay skinny. A x
“People can do terrible things when they feel safe and powerful.”
Becky Chambers, The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet
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